Not to be too heavy, but the last month has been hard for me mentally. I’ve been stuck knitting the same sweater for a while now with no “real” time to work on it. And mentally, there’s no particular reason for the hard time, it just is. I am working through it because I don’t want it take over my life, but I’m giving myself grace to not be okay for a while. I’ve missed March’s wallpaper post, and may miss more in the future but I will not miss April, that one is ready to go.

This isn’t meant to be a mental health blog but it’s a real blog by a real person. I do suffer from MDD (Major Depressive Disorder), which I’m not sure ever really goes away. I took Zoloft (sertraline) for years which caused me to gain soooo much weight but numbed me emotionally which got rid of the depression. I stopped Zoloft about three years ago (Feb 2023) and was doing well for the most part.

In July of 2025 I had my son. Our third baby and the busiest one yet. Now that my hormones are finding their way back to where they were before, I feel a little out of whack. Like they’re resetting back to the way things were before the Zoloft. I feel like Mr. Krabs in the one meme…

Is it post-partum depression? Seven months later? Isn’t that a little too late for postpartum depression? Does post-partum depression in a person with MDD really have a time limit on when it should show up?

Welp, as I mentioned, for the past few months I’ve been working on a cardigan. This is an oversized knit cardigan that is made with a fluffy blanket yarn which is beautiful, but fickle. This was supposed to be a vlog and pattern, but when a month passed and I unraveled the second sleeve three times (for it to still be the wrong size!!!) I decided this one would be neither. It’s going to be a sweater I can hopefully finish before spring and wear at least once.

Thanks for reading, and hopefully, understanding.
Happy Crafting!!

-Sabrina